“Most [wo]men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with their song still in them” ~ Henry David Thoreau
I don’t want to be one of those people.
So, I’ve taken the leap. I’ve done what I’ve long been dreaming of. I’m taking control of my life and my destiny.
I’m going to sing MY song.
I’ve handed in my notice at work to leave my part-time job in one month’s time.
I’m devoting my life to play my small part in helping to relieve the suffering of stress and anxiety through calming yoga, relaxation and meditation.
I have a calling. It’s always been there. To do something useful. To make a difference. To help others. To empower others that there is a different way in life. To write. To create. To get up on stage somehow. To inspire.
To let as many people know as possible that life doesn’t have to be struggle and difficulty and stress and self-loathing and quiet desperation. That we are free despite the mass manipulation by of our governments and media and culture with their twisted messages of fear and self-loathing and hatred of others.
But first I had to make my own journey from that dark place to a different one.
To a place of joy and self-acceptance and permission to do what lights me up. Of lightness. Of simplicity. To a place of self-belief.
It’s been a long journey – and I’m still on it, believe me, I’m very much still on it!
I look back 20 years ago when I’d just left Uni and had no idea what to do with life and the idea of finding and fitting into a workplace scared the life out of me.
I look back 10 years ago to when I was working in a job which didn’t fulfil me but the yearning and call of my soul to do something worthwhile was getting louder – but no clearer.
I look back 5 or 6 years ago to when I was working in a horribly toxic bullying environment and my true self was utterly squashed and my soul was crying every day and negativity overwhelmed me.
Throughout this time I’ve experienced heartbreak and loss and confusion.
And I’ve experienced laughter and joy and true love too.
My life raft
And the thing that’s been my life raft, my life-support system, my guiding light, since I discovered it in 2000, is yoga.
The physical practice of yoga helped me to release years of tension from my body – the physical manifestations of lack of self-acceptance (and lack of understanding of my highly sensitive nature).
The relaxation and breathing helped me to calm my nervous system and in turn to find space between the thoughts.
The philosophy guided me to live a life with intention.
Meditation has offered me a path to inner peace and stillness and self-acceptance.
Yoga has helped me to realize that I am not my mind. I am not my fearful thoughts. I am open and expansive and free. I am present and loving and compassionate.
I am a called woman
I am me. I am a unique manifestation of experience, skills, gifts and ideas. Born at this moment in time in this female body to connect to others for a purpose.
So, this is my calling. To provide a safe space for stressed and anxious sensitive souls to relax, unwind and recharge, and to find stillness, so that the loving voice of inner wisdom can be heard so it can guide them to inner strength, self-acceptance and joy.
And I’m going to do this through teaching Dru yoga and meditation, through holding space for others to make their unique journey, through writing, through painting … and, whatever path this beautiful, scary, exciting journey will take me on.
Does all this I’ve said mean I think I’m special? Hell yes! But no more special than you.
We all have our unique song within us.
Are you singing yours?
It doesn’t have to be huge or grand or life-changing.
But please, don’t go to your grave without having sung it – at least give the first few lines a try and listen to how it sounds and feels to sing it!
Whatever your dream in life is, give it a go.
It’s taken me 7 years to get to this point – I first started thinking about training to teach yoga in 2009. I am under no illusion that a lot of hard work, self-discovery and discipline lies ahead of me to make a sustainable living from doing what I love. (And I am deeply grateful for the love and complete support of my husband in doing this, as well as the wonderful souls who come to my classes and workshops.)
It’s scary to have to rely on your own wits to make a living rather than just turning up somewhere every day and receiving your pay cheque at the end of the month (as I have been doing for the last 20 or so years).
But in the end, I decided that the risk of trying to follow my dreams and use my gifts and talents and embrace life was a much smaller risk than that of staying where I was and living my life in fear and always wondering “what if?”.
Wherever you are in your life. Whatever place you are in emotionally or mentally. Sing a few words of your song. Do something small each day which brings you joy. Allow yourself to dream – and smile indulgently at and then put to one side the “yes but” excuses which will doubtless arise.
We only have one life (in this body and this time). Live it. Sing it. Dance it. Embrace it. It’s never too early or too late.
I love these words. They remind me to be courageous and powerful and magical, maybe they’ll inspire you too:
“Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!” ~ Goethe